Oh I dunno, just felt like writing something

I have a lot going on in my head and just felt like writing about some of it.

First off I am in possession of the book "Its a break up because its broken" again and I plan to finish reading it and blogging about it even though I don't need its help anymore but I plan to finish what I started so I will blog on that soon.

Secondly I will be on a road trip soon to California with my brother so he can have his car there and then I will fly back. I am so excited. He and I haven't done this before and I think its going to be a fun trip. Just hope we don't get stuck somewhere though.

Thirdly I quit my job. They were starting to be unreasonable for those of us who were just contracted and not employees. Since I had started working there back in November I have been asking for health insurance and never got it. The room I like using always had something wrong with it, like the speaker not working, the table warmer not working....I swear that room is possessed. Also the boss' son should be on meds and actually not allowed to work there because he is always screwing things up and never accepting responsibility and his "mommy" always covered for him. It is ridiculous. So many other things also, like some therapists got on my nerves but everyone else I absolutely adored and looked up to and see life long friendships with.

Fourthly quitting my job I think in the long run was best. I was feeling kind of antsy and just knew this was what I needed to do but didn't want to do it. So that is why I took a week off. Well to go see my son also but to clear my head and relax. When I went back to work it felt like it was going to be ok until the 2nd back when I found out my brother was coming home and we were going on the road trip. I asked off and well you sort of know the rest, I quit. I knew it was time for me to go at the point even though I needed to stay but it was stressing me out to much. Why can't I be that way in relationships? I get the same feeling when I have been in a relationship but I ignore it because I want to try and make it work and make it last as long as possible but knowing I need to get out makes the relationship worse and so instead of me breaking up with them and walking away feeling free I end up getting dumped and broken hearted because no one likes to be dumped. But now that I am free it feels good and I can focus on getting my own business back up and running and also focus on school. Which is another reason why I quit work was because I was going to have to cut back in hours so that I can go to school. But since I don't have to worry about that anymore that takes a LOT of pressure off me and takes away the migraines I have been having lately from stressing over it. I just need to focus on school and get it done and then I can focus more on what I really want to do. I posted before that I want to be a cop but I think I want to explore the FBI and CIA a bit. I doubt I will get in because my grades aren't great and I need to learn a language which I am leaning toward German, French, and Spanish...seeing how I know a little bit from all 3 already. That will take some time though but I have friends that know the languages so they can try and attempt to help me, at least keep them in practice if anything else..lol.

Fifthly I am getting the room I am living in at my parent's house more to my liking. Switching out my brothers bed for mine and getting my mother's stuff out so I can have room for mine. Getting comfortable even though I shouldn't but I have no reason to leave and no means to leave seeing how I have bad credit(that won't start getting good for another 5yrs or so) and no money(had money saved up but then I needed 4 new tires on my truck so no I am broke). I think I might have to stay here for at least another 5yrs...yes 5 unfortunately until school is over and I have a job I love where I can still do massage on the side. It will be rough because my mother is hard to live with, I don't see how my dad puts up with it. Guess that's why I will never get married, nor do I want to. But I do want to be a Foster parent one day when I have my own place and the security a kid needs, or 5 kids. I can see me fostering 5 teenagers can't you?

Sixthly I still want to sell stuff...I don't know if Ebay will be enough. I think I might have to try Craigslist and maybe the Houston Press(for those that are old enough to remember I always catch myself before I say it but I still want to say Houston POST!! Don't know why seeing how they haven't been around for what 10yrs?). I have the kitchen table and the couch and storage ottomans along with trading cards and Aeros memorabilia that I would love to get rid of. I am sure there is more in storage I can sell but I need to just take the time and go through it all and see what I want and what I don't want. I should say what I need and don't need but I need it all!!! lol.

Seventh I feel like I am a sort of gypsy because of my lifestyle moving around so much and switching jobs even if its the same kind of job. I am just glad I haven't had to live out of my truck or on the streets yet. I may one day if all this school and stuff doesn't work out. But the thing is I have put it in God's hands....that's right mom I still believe in him and he and I talk almost every day, I just don't like going to church. He and have an understanding on that one so lay off me about going to church!! Maybe I should move to New York and act like a Bohemian and hang out in Washington Square with all the others that are like me...love it there!! Or move to Paris...I have the miles...no i think Hawaii would be more peaceful for me. Ok Nick get that room ready I am moving in with you..just kidding.

Eighth THIS YEAR IS THE YEAR I GO TO HAWAII!!! Well I say that now after I quit my job..but that is what Brian and I are planning on doing. I have my miles to fly there just need the money for everything else. Anyone want to donate to the Lynn going to Hawaii FINALLY Fund?? Its for my 32 birthday and Brian's 31....oops I mean my 24th and his 25th...he he. I had planned to go for my 30th but because of my now ex and hurricane Ike I didn't get to. Well if I don't go this birthday I will definitely try after I get my tax return next year. As long as nothing else comes up that I need to spend it on. No this year is the year...I have 2 months to come up with at least $1000..I think that will cover it don't you? Not sure how long we plan to stay or what we are going to do yet but it will be on the cheap side for me. Hear that Brian??!!

My brain feels numb from all this writing...I think I emptied it out for now. Now time to clean this room and get it ready for my bed...I can't wait. It better not rain!!